2016 was filled with all sorts of fierce moments. I made some incredibly hard decisions, I lost some soldiers, I met some charming friends, I traveled, I overcame several fears and I loved hard. Like, REALLY hard.
With living fiercely through 2016 I only plan on bouldering through 2017 with not one, but two words: Wreak Havoc.
Of course not in the sense of complete destruction. I just plan on kicking up a little dust, stirring up a little commotion and uncaging my beautiful monster. I won't be hiding any of my foibles, my fuck-ups or my shortcomings. In fact, I will lead with all of them.
Last year I worked on fiercely communicating my feelings - especially the really tough ones. It was most likely my biggest challenge thus far. And with some, I succeeded - I passed with flying colors. But with others, I left our relationship ropes completely untied, loosely dangling with zero explanation. I thought it might have been easier to just abruptly erase myself but I will say that I fully regret avoiding the blow-out fights, the tough words, the ugly cries...the truth.
2017 will unleash my monster. I am running into this year with complete comfort in my own skin. I have come to the realization that some days I have an incredibly short fuse, sometimes my emotions run high and my patience is sparse. I will continue to not be perfect, publicly. I will make no apologies - I will be the bad parts of me, too.
This year I will wreak havoc. I will think for myself more, dilute my shyness, speak my thoughts, dive head first into new experiences, be reckless, be passionate, be relevant and at times learn to just be still in my chaos. Because don't you have to be a little destructive, a little bit rebellious, to let the inner monster fight through all the mayhem?
Until next time, stay ferocious my friends.
Xx
K
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