Every year I hit this day and like so many other people I wonder how 365 days flew by in a flash. This year was filled with so much excitement, so many changes and always the best lessons.
Instead of New Years resolutions Caitlyn and I pick words. Words to live by, words to challenge us, words that grow us. My word for 2014 was Trust. That was a huge year for me. I went into the year believing I needed to learn to trust the ones I surround myself with. In turn I ended up realizing I had to figure out how to trust myself. At the beginning of 2015 I did not pick one little word. I was sincerely feeling so rebellious that I thought a word would restrict me. As I came down off my high horse I thought maybe not picking a word was the best thing for me this year. Instead of focusing on how to trust others or learn to be vulnerable or push myself to do things that I may not have been ready for, I could just focus on me. And that is exactly what I did. I was all parts of me - the good, bad and the ugly. I was raw with myself. I surprised myself with new hurtles and emotions and I learned how to leap over them alone. So now I am entirely ready to be me with everyone else.
2016 will be all kinds of fierce.
Years ago a man deemed me ferocious. And I couldn't quite grasp that considering I was absolutely the farthest thing from it. Even though I never saw the ferocious side that he spoke of, I hoped he pictured me as this tigress - this sort of alter ego that I could only dream of living up to one day. In my mind - that is exactly who I want to be. If he saw my strength then there had to be a way for me to embrace my inner tigress and let it show a little more often.
During a game several weeks ago one of my truest friends had to describe several of us with one word each. Fierce poured out of his mouth with such ease for me. Again, it baffled me that another person sees something that I am completely blind to. But it was so simple - my word was just handed to me for this upcoming year. I am not talking Tyra Banks sort of fierce with her pretty little smise. I am talking all sorts of rebellious, badass, tough fierceness. I will continue to surprise myself this year. I will attack 2016 with immense passion.
This is the year I quit solely writing about opening my heart and truly let people experience my rawness - my realness. This is the time for me to attack every aspect of my incredible journey with so much badassery and intensity. I will not always behave, I will let my wild run free. I will break away from tame. This is my year - my fierce, ferocious 365 days.
I hope each of you attack 2016 with a new dream. Happy New Year.
Stay ferocious my friends,
xx
